Friday, May 6, 2011

Shaking My Faith...

I just don't understand why some people have to go through so much stuff. I know these times are supposed to bring me closer to God but what really happens is it makes me wonder where the heck God is when these things happen.

Really, when you fight so hard to get pregnant, have problems, then have more problems and find out that you might have even bigger problems, at some point don't you feel a little picked on as opposed to "closer in your walk with God."

And no, this is not my situation but then mine hasn't been any easier in the last 3 years. I am no Job...I can't keep saying, "ok, God...bring it on, I'm up to the test." Because I'm tired. I'm tired of seeing people that I care about fight, suffer and be scared. I'm tired of being all of those things myself.

And I just don't get if God is supposed to be out there watching us, how the hell can he let this stuff happen?

1 comment:

Nicole said...

I admire you for still considering yourself faithful despite all of the challenges and heartaches you have faced - I have not been able to do the same. Still, I cling to the notion that one day I will understand and be thankful - one way or another.